On July 24, 2018, Demi Lovato was on the verge of dying due to an overdose of opioids, just three months after they have reached six years of sobriety. Almost two years of this terrible episode in his life, the singer decided to talk about what the orilló to this result.
During the podcast “Pretty Big Deal” that leads the model Ashley Graham, the actress also said that her eating disorder was one of the triggers that led to the overdose.
Lovato confessed she thought that it was on the right path to recovery, however, little by little it was tired of living in a lie, what led her to go back to using drugs.
“I was desgastándome and honestly I think that was what sparked everything that happened in the last year: I thought I had found the recovery, when you had not done so. Also, having lived this kind of lie and try to tell the whole world that I was happy with myself, when it was not the case,” he explained.
The composer of 27 years, admitted that staying a certain weight and a certain size was not an easy task, and this led to taking wrong decisions.
“I had to work very hard in the gym, 6 days a week to keep the figure that had and that led me to a destination, and I don’t want to go down that path and I’m not willing to destroy my mental health to see me in a certain way,” he said.
Lovato acknowledged that, although it was making to another form of the same problem, the symptoms were much more difficult to detect.
“I’m tired of tire myself out with exercise and do extreme dietsof which I thought were part of my recovery of an eating disorder, when in reality I was making more to this. And now I think that maybe my symptoms were not as obvious as before, but it was a dietary problem”, he said.
Although not blamed anyone in particular, Lovato knows that they are not surrounded with the right peoplesince you made comments criticising her figure and failed to distinguish the symptoms that have already presented.
“I think that when you have certain people around you are telling you certain that you should see you some way, it makes it more difficult. And I was in that situation… When you don’t have people who know the signs around you… what I needed was someone to come and tell me ‘you should see how much you are exercising’, or ‘exercise three times a day is a bit excessive’” stated.
His obsession reached such a degree that she could spend a whole day doing exercise, not leaving even to eat or to work.
“There were times in which I lived at the gym, and even took boards in my work and free time of exercise. It was disgusting, but I had to leave, take a shower and could eat and get back to exercising. That was not happiness, nor freedom, nor by what had worked, or what he wanted to preach. Why live that life, if it was all a lie? So I just decided not to live as well”, he said.
Now, in the project in which they are working, Lovato he took a new attitude and decided to see life from a new perspective to maintain his mental health and his sobriety.
“And when I realized that I was not happy, I made a decision to enter this album and I’m not going to worry about how I look. I’m not going to worry about seeing me in a certain way, it is not who I am”.
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